The feeling begins

Well, I think about what Figueira said yesterday and wonder what Panotti knows. What such fast techniques his are. Why he inspires so much respect. Is it the making of a god, as Elisa Gold said in her book? Is this the process she described? I think I should watch the practice more often. I go to one of our bookstores, at Praiamar, I usually go there for the books I need. If not found, then I have to fall back on Martins Fontes bookstore at Gonzaga.

Well, nothing found at Siciliano; I took a bus to Gonzaga, in search of the book, I had read Meire's copy, but need to delve more and more into it, got to have it as a reference, it's just not fair to separate her from her copy for long, she'd gladly let me keep it for lost time, but I know she'd do the same, use the book as a reference for her thoughts, so it wouldn't be nice of me to keep it. Once I find myself interested in something as a book or CD, I need to buy it. I don't like to have borrowed things in my house for long. I myself have lost too many things this way.

Here it is, I'm home and got my copy of Elisa's work. The style is dense, too dense for a quasi-academic work; she took care of the language so it could be understood by everyone involved, and still keep the density of the style. The crucial point in her book is dense, strong, even disturbing. The sensation of waste takes hold as I read the book. A strange sensation that begins to get denser, as I dive deep into the realms of those gods she tries so hard to portray. Gods she said, but like the gods we've made. Made to look like our virtues, our faults, our vices, our good, our evil. But out of the question, made to look like the power we aspire to. The image of the burning light so bright so self-consuming goes round and round my brain. The feeling begins.

Fortune | Aftermath

Radio Universal: The Making Of A Thousand Gods.